The Girl With The Eyes

I know I don't really use this journal for posting about myself that often - apart from the occasionally truth revealing meme. I have another blog elsewhere that I use for that most of the time - that and I don't actually find myself interesting enough to write about myself or my life all that often.

But I thought maybe I could do a bit of that tonight.

I know this journal started out as primarily as a place to post little bits and pieces of things I was writing. I had actually planned to complete a novel here - nice to see that dream has been replaced with plenty of multi-fandom smut. I wanted to keep the smut separate from my original (and now abandoned lj acquiescent_mal) because at the time, I was ultra-conservative christian girl.

Well wrestling with the part of me that loved smut ultra-conservative christian girl to put a finer point on things.

So this became my safe haven for the things I couldn't let my friends know about. Because the thing is when you live in Abilene, Texas and someone finds out you like writing about two television stars and the things you imagine they do together in their free time - well word gets around fast and I would have found myself in an intervention faster than you can blink.

Of course an intervention is what ultimately pulled me away from my ultra-conservative ways, and I am now more fully embracing this part of who I am and not feeling like I have to be a sneak about it so much.

I moved home a few months ago (6 to be exact) for a lot of reasons, and in doing so I've had a lot of time to think about myself and what I want for myself now and in the future. It's all been a big process of self-discovery and change and I'm really proud of what I have accomplished during all that time.

So maybe this will become a place I can share more of myself with time, I hope so, because I do like the community that lives here on lj, I've never found anything else like it - and I've managed to make some pretty spectacular friends through fandom and none of that would have happened without lj.

So expect to see more of me here, and not just my writing, which of course will still continue to be found here.